Got my port. Started out a bit scary, as the IV was going to be placed in my left hand, but the vein blew and it HURT! Then I began to worry that the procedure would hurt. I had to fast, so I was hungry, thirsty, and tired- everything seemed bad. I even started to cry on the table. I was planning to just go into a nice daydream, but God brought me to Him. I prayed throughout, instead. The nurses thought I was asleep- more like meditating. I told God I felt scared and alone. They had Sirius XM playing. Phillip Phillips' "Home" came on.
"Hold on, to me as we go
As we roll down this unfamiliar road
And although this wave is stringing us along
Just know you're not alone
'Cause I'm going to make this place your home
Settle down, it'll all be clear
Don't pay no mind to the demons
They fill you with fear
The trouble it might drag you down
If you get lost, you can always be found
Just know you're not alone
'Cause I'm going to make this place your home
Settle down, it'll all be clear
Don't pay no mind to the demons
They fill you with fear
The trouble it might drag you down
If you get lost, you can always be found
Just know you're not alone
'Cause I'm going to make this place your home"
Wow- God just spoke right to me in a pop song. The implantation went fine and I felt good after having some crackers and Coke. I've worked on my sewing project and re-read on P. Shirer's The Armor of God study. I can already see areas where I'm losing my focus on God.
"Hold on, to me as we go
As we roll down this unfamiliar road
And although this wave is stringing us along
Just know you're not alone
'Cause I'm going to make this place your home
Settle down, it'll all be clear
Don't pay no mind to the demons
They fill you with fear
The trouble it might drag you down
If you get lost, you can always be found
Just know you're not alone
'Cause I'm going to make this place your home
Settle down, it'll all be clear
Don't pay no mind to the demons
They fill you with fear
The trouble it might drag you down
If you get lost, you can always be found
Just know you're not alone
'Cause I'm going to make this place your home"
Wow- God just spoke right to me in a pop song. The implantation went fine and I felt good after having some crackers and Coke. I've worked on my sewing project and re-read on P. Shirer's The Armor of God study. I can already see areas where I'm losing my focus on God.
I started running a fever last night. Felt awful. Woke up every hour or so. I slept until 1 this afternoon and took a nap at 3. My temp stayed down all day, but it is up again. Only other symptom is a scratchy throat. On the other hand, I've had muscular pain that hasn't abated for a week that finally feels better. Which is weird. Whenever I feel badly, I start to think that dying would be a relief. Then I start to feel better and feel guilty for thinking that. I am all over the place right now. I just want a good night's sleep.