Stage 4 incurable cancer confirmed. OK, God, How do I proceed? My doctor would have a fit over fasting, but I feel like I should. On Sunday. No food. No TV. Sewing, writing (about or to you), praying, hymns, Bible reading, revisiting old Bible studies. Ok, check. I will trust that lack of sold nourishment will be made up for in concentrating on you. But beyond that? I need serious guidance here. Do I go with the doctor's treatment plan? I know it will entail making me comfortable, nothing more. And that's OK. But is there more? Am I to be still and let you fight the cancer? Am I to be still and let you give me another illness that could prompt my immune system? Am I to go out and enjoy activities that I have shunned, regardless? Am I to actively try to contract an illness to prompt a response? That last one seems silly, but I'd do it if you told me to. I'd rather it be You to handle everything. And at the end, either you heal me and postpone my death, or I join you and become perfected. I am definitely inclined to go out and enjoy myself, masked to protect others- Covid-19, flu, colds, whatever be hanged. I can only put my trust in You, now, there is no other option. Please, may I go where you lead.
In the authoritative name of Jesus,
Amen- So be it
In the authoritative name of Jesus,
Amen- So be it